Today it hit me

Tomorrow we celebrate my oldest son's birthday. It's hard to believe that three years ago that rambunctious little boy was just a baby. Monday he goes to school for the first time and I find myself lost, I love that little boy so much and I am having a hard time letting go. But I suppose every child has to spread their wings and fly at sometime, I know that the school is going to be amazing for my boy. It's harder for me to let go because he does have a disability. What if they don't treat them right, what if they don't understand him what if you can't make friends the same way everybody else can will he be okay these are my questions but I just have faith that they'll do what's best for him that'll go to love him and cherish him like I do. He's growing so fast, I think of all the milestones of all the amazing things that have gone on our lives since a little baby I could never have was born. He is so cherished, and so loved and though it's hard for me to let him go for just 2 1/2 hours a day I know that this is best for him and he'll love it there. I have faith that God will use this to help him be stronger and better and maybe even start having some words. I have faith but boy am I going to miss that sweet little boy, my baby is three years old in less than a week. It's going to be a big change but of course I'll have little Kaiden and care for. My sweet little one-year-old boy my little baby or, he's a baby to me. I hope that this will be a good change for little jair I hope that me and his teacher can form an alliance where together we can help them grow stronger. A new chapter in our life is beginning, I'm sure it will have its own crazy turns it's undulations on hardships. I can't wait to see my boys grow up. I am so proud of them so proud to be their mommy got give me the wisdom to know what comes next for me how I can be a better mommy is beautiful little boys. And hey just wanting some more cuddles for Kaiden and mommy more time to practice walking talking and praying together I'm sure it'll Jeremy will have a blast and meaning Kaiden will have a ball I can't believe my child is already going to school I can't believe he's turning three but I'm so thankful to have them here with me today. Praise the Lord to give her for great thanks thank you for choosing me to be these boys mommy